''What If''

What If I'm dead, What If I don't born on this earth, What If I just stop being myself, What If I slap my friends, What If I stop talking, What If I start talking about myself, What If I love someone, What If I stop criticize about others, What If I close myself in a cupboard, What If there is no school, What If there is no hope, What If this world is destroy, What If we need to leave our family. I think a lot about the word ''What If'' since it may affect the decision we make in our life. With the word ''What If'', we can have or may not have hope. We can use it positively or negatively. I think most of us use it in a positive way because there is a way or a sense of hope to change certain things in life. For some reasons, all of us like good things happen in our life. If possible, the more the better. Somehow, when we are going through some circumstances or disappointments in our life, we start to think things in a negative way, we start to blame ourselves for making such a careless actions or thoughts. We start to say the word''What If''. We start to treat the word''What If'' in a very negative way that can destroy our hope. In my opinion, the word''What If'' can be use in a positive or negative way. As a student, we always have test. When the results came out, we start to compare with the others and when we saw ourselves made some silly mistakes , we start to use the word ''What If'' again. We start to think what if I put this answer earlier in the test, then I will not make the mistakes and marks will be higher. Comparison among others in the exams have always been a problem. If we think deeper, in such situation, we should use the word''What If'' in a positive way not in a negative way. What if we don't make this mistake next time in a test instead what if I had put this answer earlier in the test, which one is better?The positive one or the negative one. Let's just take the fact that none of it can change our marks but we can choose which  one to live on with. Our life has to go on no matter what happened to us and by making a right choice now , we are able to create a better future.

Criticism

To the one who know me well enough,I guess the word above must be mean a lot to you guys especially coming out from my mouth.I like to criticize,that is undeniable. This is just one of my bad habit , I think. Sometimes, I like to comment people by using harsh words and indirectly those words hurt their feeling. Everyone who had a talk with me, must DISLIKE me a lot by commenting on their personalities, attitudes or anything that I can say it from my thoughts. But, I guess I'm just trying to say the true fact of the facts.To me, you can choose to accept or avoid it . There is a choice in everything.But still it is better for us to face the reality. Even though, I think the reality may embarrassed or hurt us .If you have the courage to take the step by accepting any comments from anyone, congratulation because you are not a coward, if you denied and defense for yourself or say a thousand reasons by denying the truth, then you have not enough courage.

Questions in my head

  I always wonder who are friends? Are they just a bunch of people who we talk to when we are bored or they are people who we are so close that we can tell them everything about us.Well, all of my friends say I will never understand the meaning of friendships because I never make friends sincere from my heart and I always close up my thoughts, barely people know what am I thinking. School holiday is starting soon,  I tried to remember back the day when school starts, when all of us are trying to know each other, when we were introduced to someone that we didn't know and from there, we start a friendship. This year, a lot of my friends change , not just their height and  look but attitude. Attitude means a lot to me , especially it represent what kind of family are you from and where is your standard.Humans are imperfect and there are people who are doing things that are cheap and useless. I cant do anything but keep a distance from them.